Touched

i'm very touched. Thanks so much laogong.

Am i nervous?

Am i nervous??!! How can i make such a terrible mistake?? can i do it one more time? sigh. utterly disappointed in myself during the oral. i'm just talking crap. after that i cannot even recalled what i've just said to mr ong. what i've prepared beforehand had escaped from my head. the sight of seeing him make me so scared. sigh. =((((((

First i did so badly for my oral!

Afraid

Tomorrow is my prelim english oral. I'm e first one. Sigh. afraid. i always don't have confidence for english oral. Reason? i myself don't even either. haha.

The man is looking at a girl wearing bikini. haha. This is what eli and i discussed in class and we actually presented this to the class. haha. made such a fool out of ourselves. haha. guess i managed to pick up some skills for picture topic. haha. =)

HAPPY B'DAY ELI

Chinese O level

Today is one of the major paper! Chinese O level paper. I just hope i can get an A and then concentrate on my other subjects. Yipee!

I'm not affected by what happen yesterday and pretend nothing happen. Just smile when i looked at the person today. =) thx valerie. U've helped me one way or the other. =)

June holiday is not a resting holiday for me. it is just like a working holiday.. Study for prelim and O and to take care of my baby cousin zhixiang. i'm still finding when is e day to go back school for vb. Vb gals let me noe when are you gals going back. let me noe by calling me or msg me =))thx!

Take care everyone!! I will not blog that often.

gift

Tomorrow will my freind's b'day and she will turn sweet 16! haha.

i bought her things that i liked most. now then i Know e things that u liked most does not have to be posseessed by us,we can give what we liked most to people around us so that they will also have the joy we had. =))

Tomorrow there's lessons to attend. sigh.

I have prelim english oral.

mixed up

My feeling is kind of mixed up.. had different feelings.. I just don't like to be bother by this. but why am i still thinking ot it? sigh. can u get out of my life?? this friendship is it still worth carrying on?

hope it won't affect my feelings tomorrow.

3 more days

3 more days to chinese O level! am i ready?? Yes!!

Just going to treat it as normal paper and no second chance is to be given to me and give my very best for the paper. I believe i can do well for chinese paper and i won't disappoint myself. =) i'm only going to remember the format for the letter writing. haha

All the best to all my friends who are taking Mt paper on Monday.

Well today woke up very early and didn't eat much.. my tummy again.. sigh. guess my stomach is getting weaker and weaker each day so i have to avoid eating those spicy and sour food which i like most. haha. i'll try.

Oh ya i just recalled zhining said that one sentence of mine can actually form a long paragraph and thst's what mr ong told me. haha. i'll improve my sentence structure and use more punctuation. =)

Btw i'm now in the regional library. haha.

BUSY

I'm going to be EXTREMELy busy during june holiday!!! First 3 weeks i had to go back to school for extra lesson and it is almost everyday excluding weekend. sigh.

I intended to go back and watched them practice but.. who can help me??!!

Sigh. i'm going to miss lesson tmr.

restless

These few days i'll feel very tired in school and i'll closed my eyes and be isolated from everything,everyone. Sometimes i don't feel like talking in class i just want to be in my land and think of things and what i'm going to do on later on. i lose the enrgy i had before. =(

On fri i'm not going to school then so many things happen on that day. sigh.

No one understand me or am i enclosing myself?

RELC

Actually i typed quite a lot but DC then forget it don't want to re-type so leave it. =(

But i'm actually quite shocked that winna and xinling noticed the change in me but i did not confide in them. I just want to be left alone. =(

Mid year results

Finally i'll get back all my mid-year results! deeply disappointed. all kinds of grade also have A to E. haha. Just concentrate on prelims and O. i'm not going to let this affect me. haha.

I skipped today Chinese remedial. i went for Vb meeting. Went there do nothing except for chit chat. I also don't think i can help out in any area except for sitting there quietly. Everything was done very not according to plan. All because of someone who don't care about other's feelings. luckily i don't have to face her anymore.

Tomorrow i'll still have to wake up very early and attend literature seminar. I wonder will i be absorbing what the lecture is about or daydreaming over there. haha.

wordless

Actually i wanted to pin down my thoughts yesterday but there were many things up in my mind that i don't know how to start. Too many flashes in my mind. since sec1 till now. the journey that i had gone through,is it worthwhile? Am i enjoying myself?

Thought about the time whe i stepped in to Junyuan,the people around me,how i get into my cca,how i got to know the friends around me,the activities that i took part in,the experience i gained and many many other things. do i enjoyed myself??

From 1e5 to 2e2 to 3e2 then now 4e2,am i progressing or maintaining? am i happy or am i trying to be happy?

Volleyball,do i like this sport? i do like this sport but am i enjoying myself this 3 years+? till now i'm still not willing to let go. i miss it. Fri i'm going back there this familiar place. how should i feel? how should i behave?

Friends. know a lot of friends. someone told me i'm popular among my peers. am i? We gain and lose them. How do we know they are true to us?Friends are there to be with you in your good and bad times. They open up your mind and heart to things that you can never experience alone. Friends are just like food. There are many kinds of food out there. How will we ever know which one is really good for us? We will never know unless we take the time to savor it. a risk to be taken.

Too many things to be said but i'm tired. Too many thoughts in my mind. i shall throw some useless thoughts away and prepared for my O!

i went to Suntec and watch Poseidon yesterday. A very incredible movie. there were parts that touching. you should go and watched it.

Tomorrow have to go back to school. get back results?? haha.

Mother's day and end of exam

Finally i can have a break without any worries!! EXAM IS OVER!!

Straight after exam i went out with euncie and had our breakfast+lunch. it has been so long since i went out with her. =) Went Tm and shopped but not even a single shop is open. sad.haha. went to buy some drinks and it taste so sweet!! Eunice will be 'dying' soon. haha.

this Friday there is training. Cocah want us to know. I heard it from eileen and i was kind of surprised to hear that coach miss us(sec4). true of false? Hope it is true or are we there to help out? helping out or enjoying ourselves? AND this fri i'll be having an injection!!!!!!!!!!!!! can i skip?

Whoosh!

Finally i get to use my computer! so glad! =) I still have my last paper on monday(chem+bio) mcq but i think it is mangeable. i did not pin high hopes for the mid year in getting glamarious results(except mother tongue) but i hope i'll be able to pass all the subjects. haha.

=))))

Raining day.

The rain started to pour 15 mins before school end but it started fast and ended fast too. =)

Chemistry and POA test was a disaster! I didn't manage to pass my poa overall for MCQ. =( How can i forgot that there's test today? Felt so stressed up. In addition to it tomorrow i'll be having chemistry and biology practical test. Hope they do help me.

After the practical, ELi,EUnice,Xl and i will be going out and study. =)