Again so many days never update. just don't have the energy to blog. there's too many things i HATE to see. i've already closed one eye but still... something are meant to be there,i won't force it anymore.

once again, i teared.

i suppose i've heard an answer from a very faraway place. suddenly,i've recalled what my coach said. the 3As once more. i'm doing fine with it. but it's hard to change within a day or two. this time i'm depending on myself.

TOmorrow i had a day off. it just what i want. i'll be going back to my ah ma's hse then anglican high to watch bb match follow by a place which i long to go and do what i want ALONE. i shall be an invisible gal on the 1st of march. only a person can stop me if i get to hear what i want. that is almost impossible.

a brand new start tomorrow

I tink i've found (another)angel once more. All my family members and friends are my angels!! BUT... ... ... ... anyway thx for the noticing the small little details. that's very kind and lovely. And i'm not deaf hor! =p

red light

i've received hongbao from gary's mother.








The day ended badly. how i wish the time will stop when we were in the bus. i don't wish history to repeat itself. NEVER!!!

resignation letter

I've handed in my resignation letter today. i stared at the paper before i passed it personally to auntie meilan. the feeling was great. no longer the same rountine-smile,scan and scan and more scanning finally thank you. that's so boring.

happy new year

Once again,it's new year. the year of pig. does that mean this year will be a lazy year for everyone,including me??? =) even if that so,i don't really enjoy this new year or should i say this year. ever since on my b'day,i've never been happy.

Simply just hate this year. i don't even have the motivation to do things,let even have the responsibility to do things. what's wrong with me??? just because of that incident??? i can't pull myself up or should i say i need time?

Anyway,i went to visit 2 grandparents's house and even hospital to visit my ah ma. the time just pass very slow. except when many cousins and i went to playground with baby. he's just too adorable. i also took quite a no. of pics. main focus is always on me. haha.

my day ended up badly. "friends are important too..."

happy new year and happy b'day to dear

sad man!!!

I can sense that my blog misses me therefore I came online. =)

9th of Feb.
Firstly is the release of the Os, I actually got less than 20 and less than 15 in my L1R5 and L1R4 respectively. A great improvement comparing to prelims. And thx for the support given to me. Actually I don’t wish to blog about this day but I’m really very thankful to my teachers. To my surprise, mdm saleha gave me a tight hug for doing her proud in English. I was ecstatic at that moment. One sad thing was that I still had to rush to work on that day. Argh.

The rest of the days were a difficult challenge to me. Which is to make a decision for my future. I’ve made it through. What I can do is to wait for the result.

!4th of Feb.
Nevertheless, this day I needed to work. But luckily was in the morning which gave an opportunity to celebrate the particular day later at night. That few hours after work was super memorable to me and him. I’m thankful for the present he gave me and the surprise I received when I reached home. Presents are important on that day. I’m making it up now. Working in progress.

16th of Feb
I wasn’t feeling well. I have no idea why my right hand will feel pain and tremble in the morning. I received scolding from the old lady this morning, which in turn affected my mood the whole day. Super annoying.

Photos will be up soon on the valentine’s day. =)

My mind needs a break. i've been thinking non-stop(results-that worries me a lot,us,friends etc). haha.

And today i had a better understanding of myself. haha. went for a "computer aided fortune analysis" that was what the report state about me. below is just part of the description...

lives in the past. A very sentimental person who is easily hurt. that is why you often hide your feelings behind a strong facade. as there isn't much worth remembering,even the unpleasant past tends to be raked up as well. also an extremely sensitive lover. hate to deal with the trival details of things.

frequently analyses you own thoughts and action. posses a vivid imagination. love to relieve the past of to deal with situations through fantasy, this will no doubt improve on your conceptualisation and the way you handle situations,will also enhance your creativity.

By the look of your personality,you are the type who wants only a few bossom friends. but because you are so helpful,you attract many friends who are reassured by your reliability and loyalty. you are as close to your friends as their parents. not a social butterfly by nature,you,however,enjoy great popularity in your social circle and enjoy entertaining friends and colleagues at home.

fully enjoyed myself today. must control!!!!!