Can't make it

Today junyuan had a match with with pasir ris... they lost... i'm not able to take part... i've been thinking about the team although i'm not present. yet people will mistaken... who cares! if they think it this way they are not the one who understand me most...

I just asked my mother whether i could go for tomorrow match.. she said no!!! haiz... feeling very down even if i share with someone they won't understand how i feel. i really like volleyball and wish to take part in each match or competition.. as volleyball has gradually become part of my life. i really enjoy being part of volleyball team! haiz...

Shall ask my mother again before i sleep. but i guess the answer will be a NO.