tears

Lesson was so interesting today even for poa. haha.

I dropped my tears today just befroe recess while having some talk with my best friends. i'm just so useless. y can't i control myself?! Went to school today pretended to be happy. i even become crazy. kept talking lame things until my friends can't stand me. why am i doing this? so that i won't be thinking of unhappy things. haiz. but i still think of it till i can't concentrate in class after recess.

Should i go for tmr training? i'm scared!! really very scared! 50-50.

Who can help me?