Faithful
Adhering firmly and devotedly, as to a person, cause, or idea; loyal.
Engaging in sex only with one's spouse or only with one's partner in a sexual relationship.
Having or full of faith.
Worthy of trust or belief; reliable.
Consistent with truth or actuality



Lies
A false statement deliberately presented as being true
Something meant to deceive or give a wrong impression.



Love
A deep, tender, ineffable feeling of affection and solicitude toward a person, such as that arising from kinship, recognition of attractive qualities, or a sense of underlying oneness.
A feeling of intense desire and attraction toward a person with whom one is disposed to make a pair; the emotion of sex and romance.
An intense emotional attachment, as for a pet or treasured object.
A person who is the object of deep or intense affection or attraction; beloved. Often used as a term of endearment.
An expression of one's affection:


Commitment
A pledge to do.

Responsibility
The state, quality, or fact of being responsible.
Something for which one is responsible; a duty, obligation, or burden.

You only have lies for the relationship

Random thoughts.(location-tutorial room having accounts)

Again, my tears came out desperately during accounts lesson. Slap me hard, for your information i won't feel any pain,seriously. i just wish to be alone for a moment. I've been receiving sms-es from gary since morning as early as 7am and i've lost count. I replied none of them. Each time i saw those messages, this will come to my mind-the main reason behind each message. Unlike in the past, i'll be happy to receive his message and reply enthusiatically,full with concern and love.

Ever since yesterday, i've been more determined than before. reasons? cause i got to see his "true colours" last night at century square,KFC and even interchange. True, my love for him is still there,3 years of relationship isn't so easy to forget. unlike him,he made it! he told me straight in my face last night. can anyone of u able to know how i feel at that moment? i doubt so. others may think that i'm trying to gain sympathy BUT i have no intention. Just ONLY childish or kiddy people will have this thoughts appearing in their mind when they read that above sentence. It's up to individuals.


I'd no idea how on earth we will come to this stage-threat.

I'm not lying. i feel threatened yesterday. I'm threatened by you! you had no idea how afraid i am to see you behaving in a state of a loony-trying to cut yourself and u INTENTIONALLY cut me,Knocked ur head into the wall and pillars and biting yourself till u bled. I cared for you. even a friend or outsider will stop what u r doing at that time. i don't wish to see you behaving this manner. this isn't you. u pushed the blame to me that i'm e one who caused u to end up in this state. You scared the hell out of me!!!! i cried badly cuz of the 'act' u'd put up, not because u keep mumbling that u can't bring yourself to love me.


I'd no idea how on earth we will come to this stage-trust.

Last night, you asked me if i love you. i answered yes. Then you make use of my love and trust and forced me to do things that i'm not willing! I don't want! U love to play with words and u always have this sort of ability to make people feel that it's their fault when actually is You. you ought to change. And face reality. The lies(past and present,hopefully not future) u told me is plenty and uncounttable. that explains i find it hard to trust you last night and even i got reprimanded by you and yet i can't voice out to you.


I'd no idea how on earth we will come to this stage-reputation.

That is the worst nightmare i ever had. It's alright that we broke up, the worst is the other party went to spoil another party's reputation. i hate it! did you need to spoil my reputation and put words into my mouth and claim that i said that when i didn't! i'm not impulsive. i'm rationale.


(edited from 3.33pm at sports complex)
I hate being threatened!!!

to be continued... i've to be prepared for the match in few mins time...