SMILE

Smiling is a disease. When a person smiles at you, involuntarily you will return the smile. However, sometimes the smile you see might be a fake. So what exactly is a smile? It is just a simple facial expression. One smiles because he or she is happy, shy or is amused by something. Yet, a smile can betray an evil heart or intention.

All I asked is for my true smile.

This is one of the poems I composed when I’m in secondary four. I named it ‘smiley poem’.

SMILEY POEM
Smiling is infectious,
You catch it like the flu.
When somebody smiled at me today,
I started smiling too.

I passed it round the corner,
And someone saw my grin,
When I smiled, I realized,
I’d passed it on to him.

I thought about that smile,
Then I realized its worth.
A single smile just like mine,
Could travel round the earth.

So, if you feel a smile begin,
Don't leave it undetected.
Let's start an epidemics quick,
And get the world infected.

I have forgotten how to smile. I put on a face in school today and I’m deeply sorry and seek for my friends’ forgiveness. Seriously, I am awake after those ‘betrayal’ and ‘lies’. I have no mean to know about more of ‘them’. News just travel fast.

Two different stories? Two different personality? Two sided person?

Anyway, today I just wish to give my thanks and sorry to my loved ones. Those who are always there and giving me support all these while even if they do not really know the story.

My Parents- I love you! I will stay strong and bring glory.

Xueyin and Mu ru- my siblings! I don’t have to tell them everything but deep in their heart they know how I feel and give me words of encouragements and treating me well. They will buy me food to cheer me up or tell me jokes. They will not ask me Qs and tolerate my mood swings.I really love them.

Sihua- you are my bestest cousin!! Really, from the bottom of my heart, I feel that you are really rationale and face problems with an open heart. You analyse situation well and giving me countless of advices and providing me an listening ears even if you are sleepy,you still accompany me till late at night to morning. I don’t really know how to express my thanks to you. U have already done enough for me. Like I said, I have decide to move on. I will do it. Give me time and plenty of it.

Shumei- laogong, I have been disturbing you and giving you more than enough troubles. What I had done in the past, is foolish. Like what you had told me, I’m being blinded by love. That is why I will listen without having any doubts. I got to learn to grow up and be more sensible. You are the first I break down completely right in front of you. You don’t mind and gave me moment of silence before comforting me. That is all I need.

Angel- i'm deeply sorry!!! still, i appreciate the advices and concern. i don't want you to be sandwich-ed too. you are my angel! always and forever!!!

Valerie- honey, though I didn’t tell you the whole exact story but thanks for the trust you gave me and the support also with those important encouragements and be with me.

Yong liang- other than saying thanks, what I can do to show my appreciation? Through this matter, I got to bond with you. At least I gained a new friendship. THANK YOU and thx for not leaving me alone. The calls and messages mean a lot.

Xingyi,Huiyi,Niki,Nisha and teri- hey girls, thanks for being observation and bringing me laughter now and then. Xy- thanks for coming down and look for me early in the morning. Hy- thanks for knowing how I feel. Niki- thx for sharing with me your thoughts. Nisha- thx for being there and letting me know to smile. Teri- never give me a chance to be alone.

Hui jia and shirline- my darling, thanks for giving me the warmest hugs! Thx for giving me hugs every now and then in class despite everyone is looking at us. Shirline- you make me feel comfortable. Thx.

Eileen,shaoying,jess.- you girls simply make me feel so honoured to know you all. Eileen- the advices means a lot to me and of course sharing with me your past experience .sy- thx for coming out and accompany me to watch movie. Jess- your shoulder is still the best!

Ernst,chin meng,William- thx for all the supports and lending me helping hand and coming down and look for me. I know you all do care. Thx so much. You all are still my friends. Now and forever.

jia en-thx thx thx thx thx!!!! for staying by my side

xuan qing-thx for the concern

For those names i didn't mention i do know you all care.

3 things to take note

1)Ignorance may not be a bad thing.
2)word ‘enemey is not in my dictionary
3)be true to urself.

stop being such a sadist and so pervertic!!! making me feel more gross.