Today meet up was a wrong move. Not only, i didn't pay full attention for my excel test and also i skipped econs tutorial!!!!! I skipped last week lecture and now i skip tutorial. i'm going to fail for that particular topic. sigh. WRONG MOVE

My side of story
I am speechless. Not knowing what to say nor explain. I've got no authorities to get anyone to believe nor in any position to tell others to understand my plight. True,it was rather disappointing to learn about people doubting the words i'd said. Also, I can't control how others think about the situation. Everyone has different beliefs, different thinkings, different perception. I can do nothing about it. Maybe all i asked for is that little trust in me.Who am i to be pissed off? Who am i to be so hurt by those words? Freaking me, why did those tears came so desperately? Those words from you meant something, yet, im NOTHING. Who will understand that i really wish to get out of everything and start life afresh? Who will know how much i yearn to become the one before all these actually happens? It's so torturing in case no one knows.

Truth is I have already improved! Truth is I have already started to control bits of myself. When he cry, I cry and consoled him. When I cry, I chose to keep it from anyone and resolved those tears myself. Perhaps, since then, I've become a totally different me. Maybe my friends are right, given more time, i'll still be the same cuz i've never move a step forward.

Tomorrow is the day! 26/7