han river

Today Dear came to my house and off we went to simei to meet ernst and his friends. We had our lunch at Han River. Dear and i wore the same shirt.

Honestly speaking,i feel bored over there. I try to mingle around with them but the feeling wasn't there. I got scalded by the hot oil while frying and it was super painful.


He just won't stop eating.



His creation~



After feeling full AND HIS LEFTOVERS

Then they went to the play then to their friend's chalet. I'M REALLY SORRY FOR THE TROUBLE CAUSED. Dear accompany me to my favourite spot and I DISCOVERED my treasures WERE GONE!!! I was utterly sad and i cried.

Luckily i have him at that moment. AND i'll keep on to the promise.

When i can i find you back? And who is the idiot who took it away!!!

WHAT A GREAT DAY TODAY!

i slept at 1+ am cause talking on phone with him then i woke up at 6.50 am! argh! Super sleepy and tired. I went to have my breakfast at ez-link mall then went home for a 10 mins nap then off to GIANT!

I was like a zombie but thanks to my cousin. he entertain me if not i sure cannot take it but argue to go home. But the things there are not gigantic at all,especially the apples(royal gala). It is getting smaller and smaller. y? guess 3 bites will finish an apple. =)


Then went home around 12pm then rest followed by a quick shower then off i went to meet my honey,valerie. She is always so good. she accompany me to temasek poly to return one documents i missed out and off we have our lunch then went shopping.

I bought a t-shirt for both of us. =)

Then went to library to reserve a book. =) PS. I LOVE YOU. faster let me loan 'u'.

Alright,then dear accompany me have dinner and i'm jealous that he had a love letter i don't have. haha. then in return i had one from him. =) thanks wor. my this love letter can talk to me as n when i need and give me support and just to name a few.

I really wish to go ice-skating before school starts but hor! my cousin is having her test. =(

I received the SWEETEST message this morning. =)

I even went for training! =)

Everything was so great! =) until you break promise.

What day izzit today? Obviously MONDAY! everyone who is working will go to work and those who is schooling will go to school. Today isn't a Monday blues for me but i just feel so down. i just wish to continue my fav sport but it's just so hard! I just wish to play as a team again but it seems impossible.

I swear i'm able to cope both my studies and sports well. But can my mummy trust me? why other parents will give their children 100% support but not mine? =(

All along i believe that getting into this cca isn't by chance by fate. This is the first choice i made in my academic life and this is my own choice. my own decision.

Singapore's land is super limitied. It has all sorts of sports complex but vb court is not for rent but only for competition.

I don't care about the outcome of the match but the process.

I miss the bond with my teammates.
I miss us screaming and giving encouragements.
I miss the competition we played together.
I miss the punishments.
I miss the running just to save the ball.
I miss the satisfaction when i set a nice ball.
I miss
I miss
I miss... VOLLEYBALL

It just isn't my day. I went to the swing and i stepped into a pool of mud. yucks! Went back home to clean it and i'm back there again. This is my fav spot. i feel much better when i'm there. BUt once i leave there. my heart sank again.

I'm troubled with many things!!!!! sigh.

Tomorrow training! hope it'll brighten my day. I've been sad for continuous 3 days.
luckily i hav friends to brighten me up. So many things to do. upcoming sentosa trip~~

I'm super frustrated! please be more enthusiastic and responsible.

Outing with gary's gang.

Initially i didn't intend to go out to KBOX at the last minute cause gastric pain but still i went. Alright,everything was great and i did enjoy myself. I'm 'stuck' in the room for full 4 hours and i was freezing cold!!! Everyone was so 'high' especially hui jun. Guess most of the time was shouting out the lyrics.

Had my dinner at LJS. All the yellow stuffs. =(

Photos taken.








This last photo he dared me to post it up so here it is. There are still many photos but TOO SCARY le. haha.

MOre outings~

i'm confused

The weather is unpredictable. It was so hot in the morning then now it is pouring so heavily. It destroy my plan. I want to jog despite the weather but there is thunder. 100% my mother won't allow to go. so i dropped the idea. It wasn't a bad idea to let the rain to wash away all the negative thoughts that has been in my head.

I spent about 2 hours plus thinking and i've reach a point whereby i feel completely relaxed and peaceful. I don't know why. But i woke up feeling bottled up. i don't know why too.

Alright,now the poly admission thing had been settled. one worries is gone but there are still many to go. i'm not yet an adult but i had so many things to think about, and to handle it myself. I miss my childhood.

i think that's the result of studying Literature. You tend to read too much and there'll always be more than 2 meanings to each sentence. That will make me confused and sometimes even angry with myself! Argh!

I love

OK. My life is weird. yesterday i was bored to death and then today i'm busy till i didn't have time for my breakfast. Alright, i got almost everything prepared except to post it. Give me a break.

One good news of the day. I'm going back to my alma mater for volleyball training(if everything goes well). that's so cool! Imagine i'll be able to play with the team again and perspire after the vigorous exercise. I simply love it! haha

Outing confirm on monday but not sure of the time and venue. I just don't wish to see her when i go back there. The look in her eyes make me fear her. =( I wonder will she be there when we went back for training.


I don't like to be scolded. i want to be pampered. =(

I'M SO BORED! ASK ME OUT!!!

OK,i'm still at math. doing this boring subject really do make me feel bored but i have to hang on. Jia you poh li.

I have given up the idea of looking for a job but to concentrate on what i'm doing now. That is what i feel the most important thing to do. Give me ideas on my upcoming workpiece. i need inspirations! Inspirations come to me!

BORED x5! anyone, please sms me entertain me. muahaha

Luckily today i have valerie to accompany me,IF NOT i'll sure lose my way!! haha. i really have no sense of direction. I can't go out alone to a place far. =( I finally found the clinic and OMG the place was crowded with people like me(doing their medical checkup). Waited for 2 hours++ to get everything done. so many tests to be taken. I feel so lucky! i don't have injection. haha. My fear.

After which we went to cineleisure to have our tea and off we shopped for clothes and we bought a pair of ring and bracelet.

I bought myself 2 blouses and one necklace. I shall stop being so spendthrift. =x

I gave him a SURPRISE! haha. hope he likes it. =) THANKS FOR THE ASSURANCE. i also want to play wor.

Thanks valerie for helping me! haha. MUst tag

Girls are sensitive. That's all i have to say. For me,i just need someone to truly understand me. knowing what i want at that moment and give me surprises now and then. nobody is perfect and i'm quite satisfied with what i have now. though there are always room for improvement. but i know things cannot be force. i'll just wait and see.

Come on! i'm trying to think positively nowadays. consoling myself that nothing will happen and it was just my imagination. i wonder if these continues will i suffer from depression?

Anyway,i guess i'm the only one still doing tys. but it was true. Due to the boredom,i did math tys in the afternoon. What surprise me was,i still can do the sums. Whee~ it was suppose to be my weakest subjects. AND I DID IT!

Today is the considered the most delightful day for me!! I feel pampered today! BUT i'm feeling sick today. =( My immune system is so weak guess these few days ate too many things then didn't really go deep into exercising. muahaha. i'm lazy.

Actually,for 3 continuous days,i had insomnia. I thought of many things and i nearly did thing yesterday that will make me regret for life AGAIn! BUT thanks to him. =) really wish to express my gratitude to you.

I thought of the things that shumei asked me on thursday. Then i know learn more about it on friday. that deeply hurts me. But i choose to believe him. i trust him. just hope that he won't misused my trust.

i missed cycling! i miss the wind! I miss the smell of the sea! I miss shumei!!

i've learned cycling!

that's me feeling excited!

Whee~ Today accompany shumei to the beach and she taught me how to cycle and i'm a fast learner. i picked up the skill fast. haha. what did shumei teach? haha. like nothing except laughing at me and teaching me how to balance. I know i looked dumb while learning. but i get the hang of it real fast and i'm indeed proud of myself. =)

Learning will NEVER be SMOOTH. haha. i thought everything will be so peaceful when... haha. i actually did a stunt on my first day learning bike!




Whatever thing we do,we must put 100% focus on it. laogong all you fault la! ask me questions then make me think more then my bike 'take control' of me. =)

We didn't spend most of our time cycling but walking cause we lost our way there. We are indeed don't have any sense of direction. haha. but i really do enjoy the time with you today. guess next outing will take a long time. i'll remember this day. let's make an effort to meet this particular day every year? ok?

We combed the whole pasir ris park and this is how we look after that. Tired and sticky!!!




Feeling joy today!

observant

I'm getting sick of all these. everything started a few days ago. This is the decision i've made,i'm going to close an eye on everything. it is all my fault for being so observant that results in the unhappiness in me. I just hate those empty promises. I hate being the last one to know everything.

PEH POH LI STOP BEING SO OBSERVANT!!!

feeling of being pampered

I want to be pampered! i love the feeling of being pampered by another person. i'm living in the fantasy of being a princess. Although i know reality is always better than fantasy. and that's true. i had experience. =)

It's been months since i received allowances from my parents and everything i had to pay by myself. therefore i spend my money wisely. but it is still hard! i'm finding ways to earn money. It's been so long since i've receive surprise or present from others. my life is dull.

SPOIL ME!

date with sm n jl

I spent my day fruitfully today. *claps* met up with Shumei and Ju lee(miss lim) in the afternoon and we entertained each other today. shumei and i really have the telepathy. =) No wonder she has been my laogong for years(2 years plus to be exact). after which they accompanied me to fairprice to return the stuffs that i owed them. =)

Again,i've rented a VCDs. it was suppose to be a scary movie but i was laughing all the way through. how ironic.

Sometimes i really wonder should i continue or not?

This is a brand new start!

I didn't spend my day fruitfully. i feel so bad! I'd wasted both my time and energy. and both are precious! And i just wasted them. I swear tomorrow will be an eventful day for me. =) Plans!!!

I've rented many vcds to spend my time away. i can pick up some skills from the movies too. haha. the pronunciation etc. =) I feel like going to PARIS!!!

There are still so mnay things undone. The ice-skating trip,the visit to sentosa,my bike,now i feel like looking for a job. =)

date me out!

enough

ENOUGH!?

hafiz and eli

I came back home with bruises. it is so painful!

I went online and i had a short conversation with hafiz. by the way we chatted with each other,i was so upset cause the ties we once had had turned to this situation. it was worse. friends are really important. i'd gradually changed to who i am in the past. =) meeting up with him in about 2 weeks time. thx for not bearing grudges and stayed by my side.

I oso received photos from hwee shan taken at the chalet. The photos were so zany. the poses by them were incredibly cute. =) i'm going to miss them all. i've to thx my honey too for suggesting to work at fairprice. all thx to her! kisses!

what a tiring night~

ntuc chalet

Yesterday was kind of depressed but i do enjoy hanging around at the chalet at a later part. there was 2 pits then gary and i were busy BBQ-ing the food for them. Actually i didin't wish to help out but valerie was playing with poker cards then i'm so bored. the rest of the guys were only busy waiting for food. so i went to help out. the result was satisfying.

Does the person who is named gary will always be so helpful?

Then was the water bomb game and card games later on. they took photos too. And i reached home very late. =) ended up handphone being confiscated. =(

the chalet did brighten up my mood for a while. but it didn't help much. While i was BBQ-ing the food. got 2 people fed me with food. haha. so sweet and i was so shy. anyway thx for the PRAWNS. sorry meixin.

Laogong i miss you.

everything over

Is everything considered over?

Each time a person touches my head,i cannot take it. haha. i love the feeling. It is somehow like being protected by that person and i'm able to feel the love or even concern from that person. my weakness? =)

i just came back from a haircut. it looks kind of weird. i hate my fringe. it is too short. i need it to cover my forehead. how am i going to take photos tomorrow? haha.

wow! i heard from my honey that there's many people in my course. haha. There are about 5 from junyuan sec. that is such a coincidence. looking forward to poly life. tp starting school on the 23rd of April. how long can it be? should i find another job? =p

I need time to buy my bike. the one that only belongs to me. =)

It's been such a long and tiring day for me. so many things to sort out then i skipped my lunch. I only drank a packet of milk. muahaha. my favourite milk. oh well. initially meeting elizabeth and hafiz for dinner since they asked me along and it's been so long since we meet up. i agreed but ended up having to rush home for dinner. i believe there will be chance.

It's so great. almost the ntuc youth is going to temasek poly. haha. i'm in the same course as jeffery i guess. haha. all the lecture notes,i'm going to get it from hwee shan. haha. school starting in April. that's so slow.

Shumei i miss you!!!

Once a person is down on luck,everything changes together and none of it is good. I'm getting so sick of it. relationship,friendship and now even my future. =( I need a break. i'm all bruised.

my retribution for getting this grade even though i can get into jc. my fault for keep concerning about us and kind of neglect my studies and now this is the result i got. coldness from him and the course i'm posted to. what is this man????? what kind of life i'm living.

4 options. go to that stupid course... retake Os... appeal for other course... quit school...

the trip is cancelled.







This is what i get. you are self-centered

bike

I spent my day 'playing' with the Hp photosmart A610 series and i printed so many pictures. they will be given to my precious darlings. =]

I've decided on a mountain bike.

When can i stop being so 'sotong'? I even forget tomorrow is the posting result until daryl reminds me. sigh. i've become so disorganised. i am trying my best to get on track. i don't wish to ruin my life with my own hands. that is the last thing i will do.

he is always the best person to look for even though he himself don't have the experience or is it becasue of his age? he had seen more than i do?

i must be doltish to actually think of such dumb things that might make me regret. i nearly did it. but always at the last minute i think of my family. i really need support. i need a helping hand. i know that i'd lost the responsiblity in me,the enthusiasm in me. I LOST MYSELF! this word love had caused me great harm. but i didn't regret falling in love.

Like what i had said i want to be back on track.

thur will be meeting meixin,yumei,henry,andrew,gary. to shop for the grocery.

sad to the core

I am in low spirits: blue, dejected, depressed, desolate, dispirited, down, downcast, downhearted, dull, dysphoric, gloomy, heavy-hearted, low, melancholic, melancholy, spiritless, tristful, unhappy, wistful, unhappy whatever.

gay

my laogong and yuxin came today while i'm working. so glad to see both of them. =)

It's so cool to be back at work. Now then i realize tat i'm missed by quite a number of them. i just feel so touched and i feel like giving them a tight hug. I'm going to give them on my last day of work. tat's for sure.

Planned my schedule. and i feel so proud of myself. everything is taking up my time. i have more time to myself now so i better find things to make myself so as not to waste time away and i won't have time to be sad.

Sometimes i do agree with what he said. but it just a while.

this march is going to be a very amazing month! so many things waiting to me to be done. having chalet next week. so many grocery to be done. meeting up with some of the youths on thur. meixin,andrew,henry and i are confirmed to be helping out. looking forward to the activities. haha. it's going to be real fun. hope tat this event i can be more happier.

ice skating this sunday! Yipee! but it sounds so dangerous to me. =( i don't want bruises. i want to look graceful. plasters!!!! i must rememeber to bring.

there's so many things i want to do. i want to go swimming(when i don't even know how),bowling(laogong when r u free),sentosa trip!!! and many more. these are the top few. who will be free? =(